July 6

2019 I have the most amazing friends! Issa Noor video Humiliation, Then a sense of a reprieve: I shouldn’t be here. https://winnipegsun.com/.../air-quality-warning.../amp Picture of an illegal alien: turned back at the border. But after the lecture about lying and the scary consequences thereof (“how old are you?” “Don’t you know you’re supposed to tell the truth?” “Read this paragraph (in a huge lawbook)” “you can be fined and imprisoned.”) they then turned nice and gave me Kleenex. I can return, just not as a house sitter. Apparently Canada considers it to be a job, even though I don’t get paid, and I need papers (which they won’t give me.) But I’m not forced to stay at the airport or sleep on concrete or otherwise get tortured. I’m not a refugee. But I still feel like pond scum, unwanted. My passport has been confiscated for my overnight hotel stay in Winnipeg, and I’m returning to NM to figure out if this is a sign from the gods that I should settle down like a good little girl. 2...